Today

I have been crying lately. A lot. It seems like I was doing pretty well for a while, was able to put on a strong face and say what needed to be said. Today is not one of those days. Last night I cried. Cried the really ugly, I can't think or talk, or see because my eyes are so swollen cry. I hate that. I hate this place I'm in because I desperately want to get out of it. But today, today seems to be another day for crying. I am ripped apart emotionally. I know that I have so much to be thankful for. So many blessings. But something inside of me is still so sad. I know I will get through this. I will climb my way out of this hole.

Yesterday I talked to my Dad who told me about a link my Aunt found about an in-utero Spina Bifida repair done in Houston earlier this year. I decided to look for it this morning, and I found it. You can read about it here, and watch a video explaining the procedure. What really got me (once again) was seeing the sweet baby girl. I think things may be a little easier when I can hold my baby girl and love on her, and see her precious face. I just feel like I need that tangible goal in mind, to remind me that all of this pain and surgery and all of these tears will be worth it when I see my precious daughter.
Please continue to pray for us. This road is long and often times so sad I can hardly stand it. We know that God is with us and will get us through. Please pray.